Monday, June 16, 2008

Dirty Words.

That's it.

I am convinced that the dirtiest word in the English language should be pancreas.

Why?

Because mine hasn't worked in nearly 20 years, yet suddenly that seems so minor for the moment.

Combine pancreas with that other word that some think should be equally taboo and dirty: cancer. Pancreatic cancer. I called my dad yesterday to wish him a happy Father's Day, and also to learn the results of some tests he had done. His health has been not great over the past several months. It's pancreatic cancer.

Right now, I don't want to dwell on it. I know it's serious. I know treatments like chemo will help, but I also know the truth of the matter is nothing but grim. I'm not sure what to do or say.

I know I'm going to be okay for now. I didn't want to hold this back. I needed you all to know. Thanks for listening.

13 comments:

  1. Hannah -
    I'm so sorry. You, your dad, and your family are in my prayers and I'm sending positive vibes & some major big hugs your way.
    I don't know what else to say except that I'm here for you - all of us in dblogville are.
    We love and care for you and consider you our friend. Personally, I consider you my d partner in crime.

    Whatever u need Hannah McD - TELL US.
    k2

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  2. Oh Hannah, I am so sorry to hear this. I will be thinking and praying for your Dad, you, and your family.

    I wish I lived closer or had an Xbox so we could chat or vent or whatev.

    I am the kind of person that is always there for my friends and I consider you one of them. Seriously.

    Take care.

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  3. I am sorry to read about your news. I am thinking good thoughts for you .....

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  4. Hannah, there really aren't any words for this. Just know that we are all here for you in whatever way you need. Thinking of your dad, you, and your entire family.

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  5. Anonymous11:12 PM

    I'm so sorry to read of this. I know how terrible this type of cancer can be.

    Lots of thoughts for you and your family.

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  6. Sorry to hear your news. Thinking of you.

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  7. So sorry to hear this, Hannah. I'm sending strength and good thoughts your way.

    #*%^@#*!Q*! pancreas!!

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  8. Hannah - You know this, but anytime you need a friend to yell, scream, or talk to I'm here. I'm thinking all the best and strongest thoughts for you and your family. Love you, doll. - Nicole

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  9. Sorry to hear about your Dad's diagnosis. You should be aware, however, that there are a number of new treatments (including a new biotech drug that was approved about a month ago) to treat pancreatic cancer, so there is reason to be hopeful, and that it may not necessarily be as dire as you anticipate. Anyway, know that our thoughts are with you and your father!

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  10. Thinking of you Hannah - please do let us know if you need anything.

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  11. Anonymous1:00 PM

    Hannah-
    I am so sorry to hear this news. I have just gone through the pancreatic cancer battle with my family and a college roommate is helping her mom battle.
    Keep us posted so we can keep your dad in our thoughts and prayers.

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  12. Oh no. I wish your dad tons of strength in his new battle. I'm sorry he has to go through this.

    I wish you strength too. Hang in there.

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  13. Hannah,
    Your dad and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
    I'm in the midst of a similar situation and the notes of support from our d-bloggers really made a difference.

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